zeZHU Ming Yan:be thinking of me cos im thinking of u

bon voyage~!!!!!!!!!

2007-11-29T20:46:00.000-08:00

im going in to army soon and i should feel happy or excited in either way.but wad i feel now is lonliness and sorrow.i dono wad do i have tt sorts of feelings,or i guess is mood swing?so many things had happened and now am i trying not to face the fact and get hurt or im just trying to live the life tt i know tt will onli happen in tales and try not to get hurt regardless of it whether its the truth or not.everyone says tt in life u gona let go of some things in order to move on,u just cant stand at ur own ground pacing.frens tt had left me so far from places to places,and im just advised to forget abt them and move on.i know the truth is showing me the reality,prompting me to forward.now the fact is tt am i able to achieve tt and do as wad the surrounding had force me to do?

my answer to all is a solid NO.frens tt i had made will always leaves traces in my life,having memories on my brain,and scars in my heart.i dono why am i feeeling this way now,maybe is the pressure and cannont the way my life is going to be and tt is not wad i want. im being force to made changes in my life becos i have totally no control over it or rather to put it in a bad way,im just so lousy to even made my own life and ppl just come by and made choices in my life which is not wad i wan.

this few days tt has past and going to i guess will be the nbest memory in my life.i hate to say tt but its a fact tt the things i wanted life to be now is disappointing. dreams and reality can onli be on the oppsite side and not on the same line.i hope tt im not lost in the midst of everything or anything.remenber me,remenber there is still a person called zeju tt had step into ur life.........

time has come to take me away

2007-11-22T20:12:00.000-08:00

its veri long seems ive been to my own blog due to alot of work and outing and of cos i cant use the com also.for the past one month time is realli veri precious for me be it time with frens or with my little darling!for me i will rather stay it in this state then to have any changes in my life for now.have so mnay things to do and so mnay things i want to have.

frens i hope tt u can be in my life forever....................

seem like its not me for this week

2007-10-31T06:23:00.000-07:00

i dono whether its me or is my mood swinging man.things surrounding me are making me so pissed off.it seems lyk im veri buay shuang with anythiing and anybody..hope i have still not offended anyone ba,if yes i also know who izzit.

maybe i stil cant get uised the speaking habit of ur ba.i need time to change,but i think now is abit gone case le..hope u understand

ITS MY BDAE AND IM SO HAPPY

2007-10-27T08:12:00.001-07:00

ITS MY BDAE MAN~!!!!!! AND ITS SO HAPPY!!!

im so happy tt its my bdae on 26 oct man...i guess this year's bdae is the one tt i loved the most and most enjoyable one.

its my bdae but i still have to go to dayspring and work mna..its still okay anyway cos its onli in the morning.went to airport and do medical screening man.its onli lyk 80 ppl so managed to finish it lyk before 12 ba..

after tt met my darling to go to my house to bath and change.was abit late though cos i got to go hm and go to plaza sing to have my lunch there.we had ajisan ramen man.its my first time tryingtt thing so don laugh at me..*i got alot of things haven eat before anyway* forget wad i called but i know its veri full man.darling was lyk telling me tt she confirm cant finsh the ramen cos its always so full.i ordered tako yaki also.its quite small and onli have 6 balls of it but its quite tasty.its so sweet to eat with ur loved ones right???hahaha..

after tt we went to checked the time slot for the movie we are going to watch called "brothers".its was on 1620 so i decided to go to play the aracade awhile before we go to watch the show.then she decided to go to cineleisure and take neoprints.i intended to do tt also but since we got to spent 2hrs more before reaching 1620,we walked there slowly.it was veri veri hot i tell u.we dorectly went to the shop at cine and started to choose the one tt we wanted./u should know tt this kinda thing is girls stuff and im not good at choosing this kind of machine thing.one thing bad abt this thing is tt its all in japanese and there is no demo or pictures to show wad it looks lyk and how to choose.lastly it was all in yen and we had to change all our money to yen before we can even use the machine.i guess its the new rules there ba.first time tt i encounter tt...machine tt we chose were actualli not the one tt we wanted cos the other one tt is much more better got alot of ppl waiting to use tt so we decided to choose the one tt is new and wanted to try out the effect of it.....

it was HORRIBLE man...maybe is we didnt know how to operate it...but we got some pics tt we posed and its nice...was going to be late for the shoe and we headed back to P.S.on the way,we were thinking of buying ice cream back as its so hot and i cant take it..went to haagen daz to got one. i got myself cookie cream.it was not bad also....got to the cinema in time though..phew..show was not bad though,just tt the story not veri thrilling onli..

wen back to my house and collect darling de lappy and sent her hm.....

after tt, i went to vivo to meet cai hui hsien yung and cherry.was abit sad of wad cherry did but still got to watch redition which is SUPER NOT NICE LORH!!!!WASTE MONEY ONLI~!!hahaha...the show is abit bored sia...it was lyk one am alr when i finish the show....hahaha...
everyone is tired so we decided to go back hm and so.lifeng suddenly called me and say she got something to talk to me and asked me to go to his house for a while.......

FIRST THING FIRST~!!!! I WANA THANK LIFENG SIYUN MARCUS AND LINCOLN,LAST BUT NOT LEAST DARREN FOR THE SURPRISE!!!!

they realli gave me a surprise tt i had nvr though of..first ,i thought tt lifeng wanted me to go to near is house to talk.so i follow suit.then things start to be weird as she kept looking behind lyk there is smth lorh..when i turn back i was so shocked tosee tt all my best frene,carrying the cake and celebrating bdae with me...i was lyk..........omgosh tt is so sweet of them can...i love them to the fullest la~!!!!though im tired but i still can feel the happiness tt they had gave me...it cant be describe using words~!!!!!

okay shall ccontinue nxt time cos im too shag for anything now...~!!!!!!!!!!!

ITS MY BDAE AND IM SO AHPPY

2007-10-27T08:12:00.000-07:00

tio thrash at dota?????i cant believe it...noobs tag along.

2007-10-21T07:37:00.001-07:00

today isnt busy at GV.work with ppl tt i have nvr so far work with...things tt happen will be fareez late for so long.lucky got jon to help us in floor.all the things are well packed and placed ba.hahaha...didnt do much also and slack all the way..

THE LAN SHOP THINGS~!!!
i was thinking of going to lan shop for awhile though im realli veri broke man..but i still wana feel happy and i got the feel to owned ppl.BUT IN THE END,I TIO OWNED?!?!?!O.0
i dono how this hAPPEN TO ME.BUT THE FIRST MATCH WAS WITH A NOOB AXE AND WE PAWNED TILL HIS ASS DROPED AND LEAVE MAN..but after tt comes a 2v2 match where i was with tt noob hy and i cant believe it tt we got pawned till our ass burned!totally burned! cant u believe a hero lvl 17 while we were less than 13?hahaha...gona catch up with dota soon alr before im out of date.

ITS GONA BE MY BDAE SOON AND I WANA COLLECT PRESENT FROM EVERYONE!!!!!ESP FROM MY SCH FRENES..HOPE I DO HAVE A SURPRISE~!!!

ps:stop saying me and the hei she hui mei mei~!!!miss jaslyn~!!!!(gold class de don wu hui)

2007-10-19T21:56:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHERRY,HSIEN YUNG AND TIM~!!!!

HAHAHA...time has passed so fast and its the time of alot of my best frene de bdae wor...hahah..ytd went to celebrate with cherry and hsien yung but after tt tim come and join us at around in the evening.but first things first,though bdae is supposed to be the person the bdae boy biggest,but i guess this time we waited for quite some time lorh...

here is how it goes man....we were supposed to meet on 2pm at city hall MRT but i was late cos of smth then i sms cherry tt ill be late..she was lyk u late agn ah?!!?!?then i though im the worst already but when i saw my phone i receive a sms from hsien yung tt he is going to be quite late and call us to go first with our program first...i donno whether he is really having smth or he deliberately does tt.as u can see he is the one to let amber knows smth and slowly it seems to be lyk a virus spread across GV ah...ahahaha...u are going to be so dead man hsien yung...
after i told cherry,she is lyk ok lorh we go walk first and wait for tt bear to come.we waited for him lyk abt 2 and a half hrs man~!!!!its far to long already lorh.cherry and i have walked the whole of marina square and sit down drank tea and still no sight of hsien yung..but at least he arrives not so bad ba.he told me tt he will be reaching before 7.

then,we went to eat at the food court near the kbox there.i guess cherry and hsien yung ate rice and i ate ramen.actually the ramen is good but they make it quite hot until i keep sweating.and i mean sweating lyk i have just run a 2.4km man..its veri hot and im "pouring".oafter we ate finish,we talked awhile there and then we proceed to kbox~!!!

starting we were lyk noobs man first time go to sing there man..then we started to keep choosing the songs we wann to sing and began singing.i guess we were all not in "top" form.and i know tt there is one scene which is so paiseh.the service crew there were helping us to clear the drinks over there.then i was singing a song tt i cant reach the key and so i 'zhao key".suddenly everyone started to look at me and i stopped singing lorh.the girl there was like,LAUGHING AT ME CAN~!!!!though she didnt mean it in the way of laughing out loud but she just smile and leave the place..i was lyk Omgosh!!!! it is realli veri paiseh u see...

after that,the 2 bdae person don wana so early go hm and so they decided to watch a show at somemwhere which we took long time to decide man..hahaha..we finally decided to watch at plaza cos tim is going to join us and so we bought the 1240 time slot of the brave one.cherry and i went to the arcade to play the games there while hsien yung went out to make a chat with someone..hahaha...then i was looking at the psp and i was tempted to try to the game.i try for the first and second time and short of 2 level and i won it man.cherry played for the first time and nearly got to the major prize.i and hedr was lyk so frustrated can....i wish tt we had won the thing at least..RWARRRR~!!!!

the shlow ended at around 3 and its realli a long show.movie was not bad as the lines are good and a good twist of using legal system law to do was the things tt a law cant do.ill say tt is the loophole of the law ba..too rigid and inflexible..hahah..oops=x
but i do have to say tt the show is long man...i thought its a 2hr show but after tt i know from box its a 2hr and 30min show lorh...i am getting impatient there man...

after the show we went to the back of plaza and planning where to go and wad to do to kill time.i wanted to go hm at first cos i have promise dad tt ill be hm to slp and so on but after 3 person's ans is don wana go hjm so early,i stayed with them.we went to a 24hrs food court near bugis man...chatted alot of craps and ate foods there....

i hope things work out this way and no more of any other conflict ba,maybe for now

2007-10-18T20:58:00.000-07:00

BON VOYAGE GRACE AND MIKE

2007-10-15T20:11:00.000-07:00

omgosh mike face changes~!!!
one of the best photos tt i have taken and i liked it alot!!

together we snapped~!!!

look at tt ah gong gong gong face~!!!=X

I REALLI HATE TO SAY IT BUT I STILL HAVE TO ADMIT TT GRACE AND MIKE HAS WENT BACK TO THEIR COUNTRY!!<33>

farewell my frens~!!!i guess they should be reaching their destination in 30mins time le ba.i know tt this day will come real soon but i dono tt it is so painful to see them to the airport and the planes flying off in front of my eyes.i just cant take it...

*people come and and go,leaving footpaths in your life.even though u are not by my side or in singapore already,true frens footpath will nvr fade away in my heart. memories may fade,looks may change,but the photos tt we take,the times tt we have spent tgt in working and outing,has deeply etched in my brain and not to mention,my heart.*

i know tt this time when they go,i may not be able to see them forever in my life,or maybe hard to meet up ba.they have been to singapore for quite some time already,working with them is a veri nice and fun thing.but happy moments must end,life still goes on....

i still rmb the first time tt i saw them when i was working,it was veri veri weird.i didnt talk to them or intro myself to them.all i do was to look at them and look off.at first,i heard alot of bad things abt them like they are lazy, veri hard to get along with,veri noisy and don wana do all then things and so on and so for. guess i was navie enough and thought tt all the above facts is true and so nvr talk to them lorh.when they use their languages to talk and look at me, i always have the thinking tt they are talking abt me and it is not good.

slowly when i started to work with them due to my shift,i found out tt actualli they are not wad they say.maybe im a quite easy to interact with person ba.though when i am quiet and i may look fierce or wad so,but i was thinking smth i guess?first person tt i know i guess is mike ba.when i got in to GV, i was give the floor posting and so mike is the first one tt i know btw them.

*mike is a person who is always veri scared at first,he is not timid,but just tt scared tt ppl working with him will get angry and don wana talk to him.he does not wann any conflict btw his friends ba.though he sometimes ignore wad u say,but in fact he is listening to wad u were talking if u think he is not.he does not hold grudged with anyone i guess.though i did not go out with him often,but i know tt he is just trying save money as i heard tt when he come singapire,he did not have enough money to even have 3 meals.sometimes when i saw him getting cigarette from other ppl becos he cant afford one,i pity him aalot.and i wish tt he can go back to his country cos at least at his country,he can still have 3 proper meals and will not slog lyk a ox during work.i guess all i can do is silently wish him all the best ba..

*grace is the second person tt i know of.she is a veri caring and funny person if u get to know her more.she likes to sing alot.sometimes during work we will suddenly sing tgt at europa and laugh our hearts out.i still rmb tt tt is one time we will singing our hearts out,suddenly i dance and the patron was standing there smiling at our action.i work with grace more than mike ba.whenever she is sad or unhappy with something, she will have some kind of face and i know it tt she is moody.the times i spent with her ill nvr forget.

today i went to send them off.thoguh i was abit late but at least i can still say goodbye to them.my heart sunken when i was on the way to the airport.lots of things flashes through my brain.the images of working with them,their smile and face.tt is the time tt i realli drop my tears.i nkow tt i cant cry when sending them off.becos if i do tt,grace cannont hold back her tears before she board the plane.i tried to hold.the moment when they went to checked in and went pass the custom,i can tell tt grace realli cant bear to part with us.i dono wad should i say to her,i dono wad i can say to console her,i dono wad to do to calm her down.it just ............when they went in to the plane,i nearly cant hold on and wanted to cry.but shida and yati calm me down. right now, if time can reverse,i realli wana realli spent the time well with them.i know tt life is lyk tt.they come and go.but i guess this time the memories tt they gave me,just make my heart realli sad and bleeding......

i guess i should stop it before i realli cry....

lots of event coming up man~!!!

2007-10-07T20:46:00.002-07:00

it seems lyk i have veri long nvr blog already and dono which person complain already le lorh...so since i got a new face for my blog so im going to blog quite a long one i guess???hahaha..

6 OCTOBER
its a sat and i got to wake up so early to go to work can!!!! can u even wake up when u got to sleep at 1am and wake up at 630 just to go for a medical screening man.its so tiring k?but at least i was late for 5mins onli so its okay de.went to near jurong bird park area.i think is jalan smth de.reach there at abt 730 and trying to learn how they set up the thing or wad man..company is PCI and their staff are realli early to come anddo their checked p lorh.i think the company is rich cos at least 50% of the staff bought the package whick is lyk $128.40 can.im in the height and weight station cos i know im the onli guy tt is the tallest lorh..hahaha..i must admit tt im quite tall??then one y one start to come in and its getting noisy.

JOKE 1
staff:omgosh the package need to have urine sample de ah??die how sia...
frene:why???just go toilet and get some lorh.u don have mehz??hahah....
staff:but just now i pee already then now cant squeeze out man.
frene:okay then i lend u some lorh!!LOL~!!

the person there makes it sound so funny can.and the other one more cham sia.
staff:ehy ur all thirsty not talk so long??
his frene:okay lorh u got drink huh??take some lorh
staff:*hand holding urine sample* nah..there u go

his frene is lyk so gong to go and nearly take it and nvr look wad is tt man...hahaha..
after tt the thing end at around 12.when i do finish all the thing is lyk around 1pm alr and we call cab to go back to bugis lorh..hahaha..free ride~!
after tt patricia and i go on our seperate ways cos she got meet her frens and im meeting darren lorh...darren is always late can....wait for him for half and hour lorh..then we startedto play arcade man..haha...we are lyk so agitated to play the capcom thing lorh..he win i win lyk tt..and its lyk so funny..after tt we go eat long john silver and saw my workplace ppl there.then its lyk they are loking at me lyk im a monster lyk tt.walkng for so long finally its close to 4 lyk tt and we head to golden village which we are gpoing to work at 1815 and he work at 1900 lorh.somemore under vik de training lorh..hahaha...he is going to die.tt day got the gruop booking of kenneth lorh.ts why he didnt learn much abt it bt i guess he knows wad to lorh...he was sitill kinda moody ba i think tt day.and we have towork till EOS and its lyk 4am can..everyone is so shag already le lorh...patrons tt we hate are nowadays getting more and more le ba.all is becos of outside food and stuff lyk tt spoilt not just our mood bu the rest of the day...in the end we ended up 4am the reach hm and sleep~!!!

7 OCTOBER
today have to work from opening till 1440 man..guess its still veri early for me cos i think tt its a short hours and so wont be so tired lorh..hahaha...alot of my frens lyk mike were lyk so early u go bk already le ah??hahaha...its a tiring day with aunty cos i know our staff sure got put smth tt will let aunty have to rearrange le lorh.so i guess im the onli one tt is going to do everything by myself le lorh.but at least its nice working with her.we were having so much fun can.hahaha..it all goes to the show tt we watch on tt day of truth e told lorh.then dono which person*hinting hsien yung* go tell one of the manager*hinting amber* and then tt manager go tell the rest ad it reached bernard's ear and i know its sure gona be in trube and a flood of rumour man.haha..well indeed the fortune-teller zeju did calculate tt the rumour spread after ttt day is faster thean the speed of light man..hahah..RIGT BERNARD? when aunty comes to work already, i saw there weew alot of things to be cleared lorh.the minute maid bottle drink,green tea,and the raw corn.at least got MAx to help me with t if not i think im gona faint there for sure man.but nvr judge a book by its cover,actualli she is going to shoot me already just tt waiting for the time to ripen.oh ya! miss goh, don think i forget abt u,u are the first one in the morning to shoot me and tt nachos cheese~!!!!

THE SCENARIO~
i was standing there panting and thinking of wad to do abt all so many shelves tt i have to do for detail cleaning,then i was talking to someone outside candybar.after tt, i heard t someone was coming in and i guess is some staff r wad,but whenthe door opens,i saw miss goh coming in with her back top lorh.then i was lyk okay. but she suddenly ask me wad am i doing there.then i say i was doing detail cleaning lorh.but she SUDDENLY jump into conjucture of me talking to the box in front of me lorh.and its the nachos cheese lorh which is so UNFAIR can~!!!AS in wad makes her think tt im so crazy to go talk to tt non-living thing lorh~!!!! i wana appeal~!!! then she just say im crazy or to me lyk i have ZHI BI ZHENG lyk tt.nvm i will keep it to myself and shoot her bk if i can..

then MAx come in and talk to aunty and after tt william follow suit.we were talking this and tt then after tt i dono why suddenly shoot to cherry and me.i don even know how they link to there sia...then aunty start to be my enemy alr by shooting yes and no ah.the most crazy thing is call me to go to china and develop my career there lorh..and its lyk so wa can.its just a rumour onli lorh then she lyktake it for real or she just wana shoot lyk all other manager lorh.AM I SO EASY TO BULLY AND SHOOT MEHZ?!?!? hahaha...but its okay lorh to have some fun but not keep shooting me~!!!they just keep shooting me and have fun while i keep defending lorh..but i know i sure lose de lorh..hahah.but it was fun anyway...
AND PLS MR \.BERNARD DON THINK TOO FAR OF WAD U SAY YTD!!!!I ILL NOT EVEN HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH HER OK SO KEEP IT TO URSELF CAN LE.
k shall blog the rest at night..~!!!!

lots of event coming up man~!!!

2007-10-07T20:46:00.001-07:00

time to split it all up and move on,my frene

2007-08-20T22:16:00.001-07:00

i dono whether am i having a attituded problem or i jsut wana run away frm everything and just have my own life onli???okay now gona say abt darren de bdae.i was abit relunctant dono wana go not.cos its lyk it will be abit weird if i go there man..and some of my frens are also not going also.maybe i have already deattached from the gropu tt i have been in last time alr.but ill still hope tt i can just be a frene of urs if u got any problem u can just sms me ba..

it seems tt i have veri long contact some of my frens already.so i guess this period im gona do so b4 i reali lost them forever.maybe they are having exam now tts why cant call them to come out lorh.but at least ive called kim han out few days ago and have some fun...its gona be daniel and kim han bdae soon so i guess gona ask them out for some fun man.!!!hahaha...

the show secret is nice and sad..makes me somehow think of the past and flashback.though i just watch the ending part but its already veri sad already le...

P.S:pls do not try to go missing for this period of time if not i will be lost in the midst of friends and time

time to split it all up and move on,my frene

2007-08-20T22:16:00.000-07:00

THE GV VIVO NIGHT!!!!!

2007-08-13T23:05:00.000-07:00

OKAY ALL IWANA SAY WAS TT IS NOT ME IN THE NIGHT OKAY!!!!!

tt night was so fun man.didnt have this kind and this much of fun for so long already!!!okay lets start off with the veri beginning.i went there abt 7 if im not wrong and started to see alot of my frenes and working mates were already there..hahaha..i was thinking lyk"omgosh an i late or anything"then i saw the managers were starting with the BBQ already.hsien yung and i and herwinda went downstairs to see if anything needs to be helped or wad.but bernard the manager called us up and guess wad,HE WAS TAKING OUT ALL THE BOTTLES OF BEER TO ONE BY ONE DISTRIBUTE TO EVERY OF US.TT IS WHEN THE WORSE NIGHTMARE AND THE MOST ENJOYING PARTS STARTED~!!!

after he given us one bottle each to those who were present,we carried on with monopoly,RISK and poker cum mahjong.first i started wantng to play RISK,but i see alot of palyers so i didnt wana join in after tt.i wen to find chris,claraence and jonathan to play cards.p.s*pls do not think tt claraence dono how to play poker,acyualli he is veri smart and got the luck of playing,later u will know why i says tt.* then started tio eat the buffet food and stuff.didnt wana godown cos veri hot and heard tt hte BBQ has stopped cos of the rain.hahaha..

after tt, i went to watch how they play monopoly.sit at the banker sit but nvr do anything,sin chiang was lyk sayying:u sit there do nothing ah?" then i was okay fine ill do smth there..noise and sounds of shouting were getting louder and bigger.and also my beeer were drinking of 1...2...3...4...5.. bottles already.so then i was told by JASLYN,SIN CHIANG,SHARON TT I HAVE SEH ALREADY!!! but i wasnt so seh as wad they say.i was abit drunk i admit.ABIT ONLI!!!hahah...then managers were starting to disappear one by one to go down and play the most challenging game.one who gets the lowest card have to drink half bottle!!! i was though quite luck cos i got onl one time need to drink,i was relieved tt is onli half bottle.but tt william says:NEW COMER AH??? LAI LAI ONE BOTTLE!!! i was lyk omgosh!!!!why lyk tt..hahaha..

one by one after playing tt ga,me wana go toilet already..cos they drink too much!!!hahaha..after tt,bernand goes around asking pppl to drink with him and all sort of tt...i got drink but also cant take it anymore already!!!

had so much fun with u guys!!!!thanks alot for the whole thing and all my frens out there...realli wont have so much fun if all of ur were not around!!! hope tt theresa is fine and well!!!

god bless all of u!!!

2007-08-03T21:11:00.000-07:00

hahaha tt time was my first time trying bowling and it turns out tt its was veri veri fun man!!!!i lyk it alot alot can~~~~
my first trt was not veri good though it hits 7-pins down and nth on the second try but i can feel the satisfation of the scoring man..lifeng was veri good and keep gtting the highest in the first round.lincoln was the most funny one as his outfit was a formal business long sleeve and play bowling there^^i was lyk thinking*if ppl see this they are going to think ttlincoln is too stress for work and come here to destrss man*hahaha..siyun is veri good at it ba.though she keep saying ;im so lousy last in socre.but actually she is the second highest can!!!!!so stop saying u are lousy okay.hahaha..we had a few jams duing the game due to the sensor was lousy and pins wanted to go out of lane and don wann to be arranged!!!

before tt we had watch the show alone and it was gore and abit of scary ba..hahaha..but at least it did scare me abit!!!hahaha...
the most funny part of lincoln when we sms;
zeju:hey u free on thurs?cos im gona booked u after ur school.
lincoln:why???i end my class at 6.where u wana go?
zeju:oh im organising a movie and stuff lyk tt.we will be watching shows.
lincoln:wad show?
zeju:the show alone
lincoln:wad show???wad alone??
zeju:we will be watching the show alone!!
lincoln:i koe..but watch alone?wad toking u?u book me just to go watch movie alone?!?!
zeju: i mean the ghost movie ALONE!!!!
lincoln:orh..okay lorh..

i was lyk omgohs im laughing cos we got a communication breakdown!!!hahaha...but lucky after tt he got one bit of impression of tt show.inside the hall we were lyk veri funny when i look at his expression,wana be scared trying to act not scared!!!!hahaha..

ps: if u think im avoiding u or wad,then i got nth to say as i think tt its not tt i don wana ask u out but if i nvr rmb wrongly she did say tt she don lyk fighting and horror movies ba.tt is why i nvr call u to go out for this outing and i know tt u loved her alot and wish to meet her everyday if can.. can understand that kind of feeling when u loved tt person alot and wish to see her everyday and will die if nvr sms her..if can ill try to contact u b4 i went in to army ba..for now,i jus think tt its best tt u concentrate on ur studies first then outing!!!!
takecare my friend~~

i just wana let u know tt wad u do i wished tt u know wad u are doing and will not repeat wad i have done and in the past.becos i realli don wana see u becoming lyk me in the past.it realli hurts!! though alot of ppl say tt she is this and she is that,but becos u are my frene i trust tt the choice tt u have made is correct. all the best for u ba!!!

guys pls do not think tt im anyhow writing this font above with symbols.it represents a thought from me abt u.its easy to break the code...hahah...those who use blogger often will know abt it........

lastly i hope tt the nxt outing will be veri soon!!!!

2007-07-27T01:39:00.000-07:00

armys period is gtting more and more near.it seems lyk i got no more freedom and cant always meet my frens out already.so fast 2 months have alr passed and i realli hope tt i wont gt the patch tt i need to go in on sep.i wish to go in decmber man so tt i can at least let my body tuned up b4 i go in.hahaha...alot of my frens have been either missing-in-action or are fine and well..hahah..hope tt u all can carry on ur poly life and move on. sometimes i wish tt everything will go on smoothly and move on ba..

for friends tt are having relationship problems,i can onli wish them good luck and all the best as there is no definite solution to every relationship.all i have learnt is to have patience, give in to each other if needed or rather sit down and have a talk between both parties.and everything will be just fine.when u make a decision,hold onto it and nvr give up.if u have a belief, believe in it and move on..

for friends tt are having friendship or family problems,i realise tt sometimes u realli need to have a veri big arguement then u will know wad is going on on one side of party,how are they feeling.i have once lost a veri good frene of mine.and we are just lyk brothers,we play tgt and all sorts of stuff.but in the end,it ended up in sadness and shattered glass.i guess friendship is not lyk broken glass,once broken considered gone.i believe tt time and a good talk to both parties is the best solution.tt is why im scared to lose some of my frenes.ive tried alot of ways to try to keep in contact with some of my frenes,some ended up going to the bad way,some don even bother to send a sms bk and some i have totally no idea whether they are still in this country nott.
ps>for me, i just quarrelled with one of my veri good frenes.im alw the one to suggest to go out and stuff lyk tt. but most of the time i guess it ended in failure becos sometimes i have my reason for saying to cancel off.i know its my fault for tt time tt i say i need to go out with my frens to go on shopping spree becos some of my frens are going in to army and some are going off.i cannont say i don meet them cos i dono when i can meet them in my life alr.but still,its my fault tt i shouldnt have suggested this event to be out with u but later last min say i cant.u have ur problems i have also.i know tt u said tt u have send me msg but nowadys u seems to be missing and i ahve to call u to say how are u and stuff lyk tt.....i realli do not wann this to happen but i guess for me i rather let it happened.to me at least i know how u feel all this while......

more and more sick of gv vivo

2007-07-18T21:04:00.000-07:00

it seems lyk the manager there are overall are okay...frens there are good man cos they treats me nice and at least not so tired lyk last time working at giant..haha..nowadays is not i don wana update my blog but is realli got no time unless lyk i say in the tagboard lifeng is going to buy me a lappy then i surely go online everyday evrynight okay lifeng???Hahaha...tt will be a nice idea right??lhave not been contacting with me frens for quite sometime.not tt i don wana contact them but is my problem tts why i chose not to ba..being my frene is such a pressure seriously.sometimes short flashes of memories tt past through my mind makes me wana cry.maybe its the time tt i realli wish tt i wana go bk to the times tt is realli veri happy...but it seems tt we cant do it.so frens will tell me"this is a part of life,there is inconsistant changing in life"(lincoln).josh says"aiya its lyk tt wann sometimes" i know all this wisdom of words but i just sometimes cant do it and i dono why.emotions is a hard thing to control

anyway hol for poly is coming soon and as well im going in to be a botak ong soon.haha.i know alot of ppl surely laugh till drop wann...hahahaha.haven seen the botak side of zeju ba right FRIENDS?yiping is organising a prawn fishing thing.hahaha..i think tt is the last few outing for me ba.haha.

for gv, im already quite tired of tt job alr ba.i think is the frens there tt make me carry on working.a smile on their day realli brighten up my work day.RIGHT GUYS AT VIVO??thought maybe im going off but i ll surely contact u all wann lah don worry.hahaha..short 35 bucks at box is realli a big amount man,its lyk one and a half day pay is gone..whick i can watch 5 times of movie lei..siao siao.hahaha..

ps>for now, i realli feel lyk for the things tt i have care for and is still the same old way,all i can say is im getting tired and no strength to hold on for veri long..for frens tt are having problems or wad,look on the brighter side or maybe time can help cool things down and let u have a clear mind to think abt it...

takecare my frenes................

2007-07-09T08:22:00.000-07:00

am having all these unhappy days and i know tt my good frene lifeng is also having tt...just wana say tt hope we can just gt out of this asap ba...hahaha...okay

FINALLY I AM REALLI GOING TO QUIT GV VIVO ALR COS IT SUCKS!!!!
will try to post more for my nxt if i got the time ba...

must it be always this way?

2007-06-30T10:01:00.000-07:00

veri bad day for me as im gona SHOUT IT OUT LOUD!!!!!!WALAO EH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
actualli the day at arts nite isa veri wonderful day and i have planned wad to do and and stuff lyk tt.but it seems tt fate is alw making and doesnt wan it to turn out the way i wann it to be ba...

i do not wish to say it anymore cos im veri confuse with wad i am now and who i am.....

[i dono whether how should i react abt it after u telling me where i am.should i give u time lyk wad u said adjusting or am i just giving myself time to accomodate this habit of urs?there are tons of question tt are actualli unsolved but after listening to wad u said to me,its all clear enough.]

whatever you do,there is always a person tt u can lean on....

2007-06-21T08:12:00.000-07:00

okay LIM LI FENG is complaining of my not up to date blog so i think i gona blog now alr...

actualli i have forgotten quite alot of things happening this past few days ba.but one thing tt i know is tt I HAVE NOT BEEN WORKING FOR ABT A WEEK ALR!!!hahaha...well tt sounds lyk a veri good thing to me and my frens cos i can gt to meet them man!!!!*hinting tt u have such a good frene*well..im always one u see..went to joey hse a FEW DAYS AGO cos they were playing something lyk wet head and stuff lyk tt.starting i thought was abit kinda boring but after tt i find it quite fun.its a toy tt puts on ur head and pull anumber of keys,one of the keys leads to the released of water and there goes ur dry handsome HAIR!!!hahaha...darren was so funny.starting he was behind my turn.after tt i pull the rest of the past few turns and he got drenched until veri cham!!!he is lyk so UNLUCKY can.^^after tt we went to joey hse and crap around.we called mac to her hse and eat while we were talking abt some stuff abt ghost.we got freak out when the curtain moves and pris insist and say tt is lincoln's legs move it.but lincoln say he didnt so yea.............

after tt i went home at around 5 with patricia cos i need to be hm at tt time as my parents has called me.

today was nth special. played lan almost the whole day.OWNING alot of ppl there.i thought my skill had dropped alr or wad but instead it didnt and keep killing alot of ppl.!!!!HAHAHA..

PS>goodbye elloise!!!! i will always rmb u this frenz...takecare and bon voyage!!!

FRIDAY EVENT

2007-06-16T20:56:00.000-07:00

today woke up at 1130 and suddenly there is a sadness beneath me tt i cant explain.flashes of my frens,my life now and etc.am i missing my frens so much or i just cant accept my life is changiing now?? it seems tt this sadness is making me feeling quite depressed..i wish tt secondary life did not changed and we can be wad we used to be.

FRIDAYS EVENT~~
friday was supposed to meet at mac in east coast at 230 but when i go there no one was there man..i was lyk OMGOSH am i late agn??haha..but it seems tt i was the only one tt is so early and the rest are all ON THE WAY here!!! called allan and he is also on the way.after tt met with lifeng,yifeng and patricia follwed by siyun and huijie!!!now wad should we do there~the whole idea of the thing is to learn rollerblading but in then end COS OF ONE PERSON LIM LIFENG tt wanted to cycle and we all ended up cycling and siyun huijie and yifen rollerblading lorh..hahaha..im indeed trying to hint lim lifeng!!!!hahaha..
we were all so enjoying ourselves taking pics of us and the rainbow man..haha.then when the rental time is over,most of them tag near the beach and chat abt some ghost stories i think.while me and priscilla are blading!! blading starting for me is so tough and not easy to master.but thks to priscilla tt sowly teach me,i have somehow master abit of the blading alr!! it was so fun can!!!hahaha...
after tt went to marine parade to eat after a looooooooooooong dragging of thinking where to go!!!hahah..
jokes say by ben is so funny and we were starving man.hahaha..
after tt we walked home from PP to aljunied.stopped halfway to eat some touhua as we wanted or rather we were tempted to eat some of it..after tt we went hm individually and rest..

TO ALL THOSE WHO TURNED UP FOR THE GATHERING~~I LOVE U ALL MAN!!! U ALL ROCKS AND TAKECARE!!=)

~i dono nowadays wad happen to me as i keep wanting to go out with my frens if possible lorh.it seems tt i realli miss alot of my frens.i hope this could carry on forever.........

kallang netball court programne

2007-06-13T20:58:00.000-07:00

WOW!!!its been a longtime since i can use the com to do anything man!!hahaha..there have been alot of new things happening during this few weeks!!!the newest event t happen will be the netball day ba..hahaha..it seems veri veri fun..and the upcoming rollerblading and kayating organise by yiping!!!

the netball day was veri fun.first we play at kallang netball court tt we booked from 11-1pm but we ended up playing till 2plus.if im not wrong alot of ppl got sunburn cosmy face is dropping alot of skins nowadays!!!hahaha...then we moved on to cleaning up of our sweaty bodies and ended up bathing at thekallang stadium!!!can u imagine it??Hahaha..we are lyk so crazy.there were alot of ppl there to train their soccer.then we decided to go to marina bay as planned.when we reached there we decided to play the arcade there.the arcade didnt seems to be veri grand or wad but at least can kill some time to wait for hsien yung as he is going to draw money out..

when he arrive at that time,ew move on EATING as we were veri hungry.everyone got a taste of the oil dancing to heir hands when they wana cooked their food..its quite nice te food.(maybe we got good cookers)darren was only keep eating and eatinng!!!!hahaha..joey join us after a while.we eat and eat!!!i think we are going to gt fat man..siyun's fish is nice,lincoln and meixuan soup was tasty and the crab there though is nice but its hot and i have to keep sweating in order to gt a taste of it ba...hahaha.

we decided to go hm and slp but joey wanted to go k box and in the end we landed up there and sing to our hearts and THROAT went dead!!hahaha...when we reached hm its lyk 3plus or 4 alr...and tml i have got to go work lah!!!realli cant take it anymore lorh.

candy bar is fun when u serve patron but its veri shitty when it comes to stocking and washing tt DAMN POPPER!!!its so tough man..need to use scraper,SCREW DRIVER and alot of tools to do it man..so siao can.i wash it lyk 3 hrs lorh!!!!sigh.....hope i can gt other place this time.

PS:if u think ive changed,then i think u are sensitve ba.hahaha.cos i think i have become bk to normal and will always bond myself to all of ur frens 4ever!!! for that, i can make a promise tt we will nvr be seperated for any reason. thks for being there to guide me MISS LIM LI FENG!!!!

2007-06-06T00:17:00.000-07:00

past few days was still okay for me man...it seems lyk my working attitude is baCK AGN!!!HAHAh..dono whether is a good sign or a bad one..now,i just wana work for the sake of money and experience onli..ytd was the gala for the movie [legends of the sea] hosted by lin jun jie and his shi mei.it was quite a busy day when i started working at around 1930 man..saw his real face for the first time.saw some of the mediacorp actor and actress in the threate also.im lyk a float in floor and europa lorh..bernard keep calling me to hlp floor then go to europa agn and help out..hahaa...but at least it was fun man..hahaha...gona start work agn later at 1700 alr..

ps: it seems lyk some of my frens have changed or rather has i change alr?? maybe i am just being sensitive??

have i changed till i dint even noticed or am i just an idiot??

2007-05-31T22:12:00.000-07:00

it seems alot of things happen and i dono wad to do alr...those tt i trust most disappoint me,those tt i once trusted were once agn proven to be lying.Once agn zeju dono know wad is he doing is correct or wrong or rather growing independent and changed till i didnt even noticed.ppl tt once tell me and given me his word tt he will do well.in the end it all ended up lyk nothing is done.all te see first, confirm with u agn until last minute or keep calling them out till giving me all the RUBBISH lyk wad;got family dinner,got to meet frens and the worst:IM VERI TIRED ALR SO CANT MEET.tt is indeed a good excuse till u got nothing to say alr and u says tt.all these seems to be a recorder tt keeps playing back at my handphone inbox when i send sms out to meet.
this only shows some things:im a veri bad organiser in wrong timing and wrong date,trying to tell me im just a passer-by in ur life and don care much abt meeting or im just a idiot who do all these things which no one does..

the most scary incident just happened.i dono wad u are trying to tell me or u realli forget tt i have alr told u not to do it?but i think the second one is not so possible as i just told u not so long ago lyk afew days ago ba.izzit u are trying to test my patience and see whether i will not know not?? now there are alot of question marks in my mind be it u or my frens.i know u feel sorry abt it.but the point is tt why did i tell u in advance regarding this problem. my ans will be cos i don wann it to happen right in front of my eyes or my ear.i admitted i have done wrong in the past and i have tried to mend it alr.cant u see?cant u feel it?or izzit i have to enhance on it??
IM JUST TOO ANGRY FOR ANYTHING TO GO INTO MY HEAD MAN..

TELL ME THE ANSWER OF ALL THE QUSTION IN MY BLOG TT I ASK????CAN ANYONE DO TT???

lifeng once told me to forgive and forget.can i do tt agn?or im just too tired to do ut,or rather im just being stubborn an have no more commitment alr..............

2007-05-26T23:53:00.000-07:00

this few days got no time to go online or play any game cos i got alot of things going on mna..ltr still have to go to work at 530 mna!!! been working and wroking this few days.past few days was going on well,on fri thought i had short money of 14 dollars man but in the end is my error of not giving the merchant copy credit card slip to the guy man and instead took the wrong wann tts why...scared the hell outta me man!!!

ytd was fun.seeing alot of my frens forveri long time alr,,ppl lyk chin soon yong yuan and fabian..its been so long tt i nvr met up with him alr..hahaha...siyun yifen and lifeng also veri hardto meet up with them nowadays though they got the time to come out but darren and lincoln is busy so nvr got to play bball for a long time!!!!nvm.they are organising a netball thing on june so see maybe if i can play with them not lorh!!!hahaha...allan bdae was a successful wann.there are so many ppl at his hse till we h5-1 have to move to his hse downstairs and chat and talk and play!!!wanted to play bball all of a sudden but when we go to macpherson cc saw all the pros there man...so decided not to..stay at allan hse for quite sometimes cos all keep talking and talking lorh..ESP THE GIRLS!!!=x

then after watching shows,lifeng was hungry and decided to go to the nearby hawker and grab something..lifeng was the one who say she is hungry but she nvr eat there!!!*im hinting*hahaha...and keep kana shoot by her at the party man!!!so not fair!!!

kk shall end here...take care all my frens.guss wont be seeing ur for quite some times~~

2007-05-23T01:00:00.000-07:00

hahaha...this few days happen quite alot of stuff though i nvr post but not so impt tt s why..but i guess i cant rmb all by now.LOL!!hahaha...okay..box office is not so hardas i see ba.just tt we are lyk venting machine and stufff lyk tt for the patron and they think tt they are realli veri big cos they got the cash amd money to buy the tix!!!no way man!!not happy refund u the money lorh!!!BIG DEAL!!have been doing floor cos firstly im not so pro at box so last min change me to floor to help out...sentosa beach resort called me and say im in for tt job alr so i have to think whether i have to go for tt job or not lorh...

ytd went to the orientation thing and feel so happy as if i have alr finally know everything abt Gv and stuff lyk tt man!!ahaha..thoug they say tt irene(head of dono wad)js veri strict,but in tt talk she is still okay.maybe i haven got a taste of her powerful scolding??ahaha..after tt went to eat with tim.esther,james,yati,and other frens..hahaha..finishing lunch,we landed in fusion playing pool man...tt is so funny as tim keeps saying "if nvr score this ball,im gona swallow the pool ball" and true enough he did not SCORE!!!TIM U STILL OWE US ALOT OF BALLS TO BE EATEN!!!HAHAHA...then he started to say eat this table,chairs, and EVEN LAMP!!!HAHAHA..then went out wht james to walk around at buis to see clothes.marcus and darren arrive and we started tto look for watches cos i needed a watch man....met daniel and caihui at bugis MT arcade and started to play lan after we ate our dinner!!!hahaha...though its still veri fun but we all have to go hm and rest alr..darren got lots of hw to be done and he is now down there at his com stressing tt how the hw can be done and solved!!!

ps>i reali sometimes don understand.izzit maybe u should go ur way and don contact for the tiime being ba.i guess this is the best way for me

2007-05-19T00:49:00.000-07:00

now adays realli lazy to post anything man...okay.this few days have been trying hard to learn box office and finally i have around master 50% if it alr..hahha..though starting was tough and stuff lyk tt but in the thks to my trainers i finally got it!!!ahahaha...darren has got in to the GV but didnt gt wad he expect but worst got into candy bar and stuff..hahahatrainer was gracina!my shifu also at GV.hahaha...gona go for the interview for sentosa job alr so maybe cant work at GV anymore.i know esther keep callling me to stay at GV till she also go then she hppy but i still haven got a comfirmation from tt manager so i'll stay???hahahaha...but still,plans are still not fix for me..now i guess i cant lead the way tt i wanted to alr.everyone has gone to their own life and procceed on to the nxt stage.

i wana play a marathon bball but now all is busy with poly stuff while i busy earning money for my courses!!hahaha...just try not to be too stress for my frens.anything happen just try to call me or wad though i have to work an cant use handphone for today as CHRIS is in my station.im still trying to find a handphone chain to hook around my neck but i wann limegreen color de strips!!!anyone knows pls let me know thks!!!

met with lifeng afew days ago for a short talk and went to library to borrow books!hahaha...i know i cnt win her in shooting but i guess she is also too stress at her accounting stuff tt is why she keep shooting me to destress RIGHT???Hahahaha..will try to meet up and have the same old way of playing bball till we dropped!hahaha....okay gona go off to work soon at abt one hour more man....

p.s>don be too stress!!anything just call me.i'.. try to be there for u^^

2007-05-16T22:52:00.000-07:00

okay it been 2 or 3 days tt nvr post anything and later someone is gona scold me agn!!!hahaha..u should know who u are TYX!!!hahaha...izzit too obvious??last few days was okay..not much things to do and floor is gtting more and more boring man...met with lifeng ytd i guess at 4am i guess??hahaha...went there tio shoot till i cant retaliate man!!!u see tt lifeng?!?!?! stop shooting me man if not i shall call my back-up!!u should know who right??today gona do blox alr man...gona deal with money matters alr and i think im realli bad abt it..hope today i don lose any money man if not jialat ah...anyway geena don feel so stress okay..anything just leave me an sms or call me..no worry!ill TRY to call u bk!ytd played bball at 6 but after playing i feel lyk we didnt play much lorh...just got a feel tt im just running around and didnt pant the way i play with siyun lifeng they all..hahaha...i wana play with them soon man so long nvr play alr!!!siyun u heard tt???Hahahaha

i realli wish we could be ,lyk the past but i guess its impossible alr...all is going their own ways which i wanted the old way.did i change or life is lyk tt?we have to abandon some of ur frens in order to get to new frens and move on in life??life is such a fickle!!!

2007-05-14T23:02:00.000-07:00

today was quite a bad day for me..keep kana shoot by my frens and stuff.though suddenlychris and i becomes veri good frens and we joke around lyk i have nvr hate him b4!!haha..tml he will not be doing alr so im gona be a little slack man..hahaha..they say alot of ghost stories to me man...and i was watching the ghoul 28 weeks later lah!!it nearly scares me to death man...hahaha...taken darren to my workplace and have an interview alr and amber the manager say he is okay.though they say tt she is a nice girl but i just think tt she is the same as the other manager ba,not much of a difference lorh..i wonder wad is so good abther lo.hahaha.WHEN ARE WE MEETING MISS LIM LIFENG????esther has been shooting me for ages and though last time she is not lyk tt but i still let her shoo COS IM NICE!!!!

kk end here..think for the nxt few weeks ill have no time for online cos im gona hold a second and maybe 3rd job!!!

2007-05-12T09:11:00.000-07:00

today got not much topost just tt don feel lyk going to tt place to work alr...dono why when i alw becomes leader alot of things to be done lyk we need to clear alot of halls and stuff lyk tt!!!!do u know how tiring to clear 5 halls when they are all full hse and group booking!?!?! damn those company got so much money might as well give me right?? i dono whether the ppl there is either a gentleman on ur front and stab u till u die and u don even know or im just too sensitive?!??it seems they are all pushing everything to me to do all the halls..i CLEARED THOSE DAMN 5 HALLS BY MYSELF!!!and when i call the ppl to hlp me they give me all kinds of excuses andsay later will help me clear when they stand there and do shit lorh..and the claner also acting pathetic tt got no one to clear she can sweep...then go usher point and ask lah!!!my fault meh?!?!!?

though i hate chris in almost everything,but one thing tt i admire him is tt when heis there,everything seems to be in order and surely he got no group booking.maybe i haven seen him clearing so many halls and have not seen him managing this kind of situation ba.but if he can do it,i will try to learn from him as no matter wad he has worked there for ages.im changing my post alr andits gona be cashier type of job!!!~i hate to be in post tt got to do and manage money!!!

kk gona stop here~i wana play bball and didnt got to play...NVM!!! i will train and beat marcus one day..guess gona go down myself tml or wad..and i keep thinking of pon- tt wok for tml!!!

2007-05-11T09:55:00.000-07:00

kinda fun today going out.wentto meet lincoln and darren for going to school to collect my ugly and lousy cert man!! don realli wana collect cos its realli not nice.but still went to sch to collect it then went to vivo..now then i know tt vivo is so huge and alot of sales going on.we walked till kinda tired and have to wait for the LATE KING FRED to come and its lyk we were supposed to meet at 3 but ended up meeting at 5 i guess..so .....and i was lyk so irritated by it lah.i am supposed to intro him job and he can be late for so long for the 2ND TIME alr!!!

after tt we went to meet daniel and samuel at E-GANES shop and started to play lan though we waited lyk 2 hours just for the com.BUT,we went to eat first cos we were also quite hungry and thus EAT FIRST then play!!!hahaha...

ps>Ms TYX so is this skin nice??and i DID IT MYSELF!!

2007-05-10T20:51:00.000-07:00

okay today was just too suay and i dono why....my frene just wanted to fix back his psp where the owner makes it more spoilt and cant even on the psp alr...it must be the owner wana earn money and purposely wna make it spoilt so to have business!!! DAMN tt guy lah wana cheat money.after tt his cousin come down with his frene to settle this shit.PLS RMB NOT TO GO TO THE STORE AT SIM LIM BESIDE THE MAMA SHOP ON LVL 1 COS THEY CHEAT MONEY!!

after tt went home to eat my dinner and was planning to meet lifeng on 9+ or 10+ but she CANT make it so nvm.guess im having fever soon!!haha!

this time its gona be a weird feeling man! sigh

depression

2007-05-09T20:47:00.000-07:00

OKAY!today was quite a rush day for me.meet up with darren and lifeng at mac and danile was super late.those two was lyk grumbling abt how hungry they are and we started to shoot daniel man.then when he finally arrives,all of us was realli relievd lyk being released from prison!hahaha..daniel u heard tt??!?!=) had lunch with then though i had already ate at home.

after tt went to bugis to stay awhile while i wait for tt fred so long and late for 2hrs!!OMGOSH! nxt time pls beware of him man.played mario arcade with daniel and darren and it was quite fun though darren and i still thinks tt the car is kinda slow.after tt,caihui and fred arrives and i departed from bugis as i got an interview to go at sommerset john little.i was so shocked when i just know tt john little,marks and spencer and robinson are actualli one company!!! i though they are all from diff company.waited not long for the inerview and pay is still not too bad.but there is quite a number of them who appiled for CASHIER post;the one tt i hated most!

went back to home to eat my dinner and off to work alr though i did not intended to go back but it was kinda boring at home.work is still okay just tt its realli boring lorh! got alot of scolding from benard the manager.but still overall he was okay man.CHRIS DID NOT WORK AFTER I CAME!i was so happy can.and i was late for work!

mabe i think tt ive changed or wad ba.sometimes maybe i don realli understand or interpret correctly ur thinking and so i wont say anything further.just feel lyk wad u say makes me confuse and thinks tt im walking the same route as marcus;maybe kinda alike now.well...for now,i cannot desire anything from u or wad,and u and "him" are more close to me in alot of ways and u are more close to him than me,i cant demand u this or tt.sigh.im just too tired to do anything now.im just a passerby......

in a state of depression

2007-05-07T23:07:00.000-07:00

okay finally i created my blog alr but still got alot of things still left and need to be constructed!!! now i know how lifeng feels when she say tt the blogskin is so hard to make..SERIOUSLY its veri HARD..though i spent little time on the blogskin,i find it there is realli alot of things tt needs to be change SLOWLY.ahhhh...nowadays blogs are so hard to use and to change to the desired skin tt u wann.

i dono whether is i hope too much from u or i think tt u are just a passerby to me.it seems lyk i dislike u more and more and is growing stronger and stronger day by day...how i wish we were just reali mere frens lyk sec sch..maybe it helps me to feel much more better.

okay goona continue my blogging at night cos i got work to do lateer!!!!omgosh ITS CHRIS AGN!!

nite>>
okay today work was abit boring though i still got scolded by chris~but this time is not so cham..one of my fren tt i know there smoke man!!! i dono she started long ago or just learnt to smoke.so scared tt she will go deeper...having a bad headache now.shall post more tml~!